Small Town Big Living: Tattoo

Well I did it, I got my tattoo last night! and yes getting a tattoo on your foot hurts... a lot. I hurt a lot physically but I knew the pain would end vs hurting emotionally over Callen and not seeing an end... ever. Much to Mikes dismay I did not cry, tear up yes, not I did not cry. I almost made him cry with my death grip. For the most part I just laid on the table, on my side trying to keep my lower body relaxed, gripping the side of the table and Mike's hand. I did not hear anything that was going on around me, I was trying to focus and breath. Mike said multiple people stopped in the room and talked with the tattoo artist, Greg, but I heard nothing. Once it was done however I did hear numerous tattoo artists say they would never get a tattoo on their foot because of the pain and that they were impressed that I did not move my foot at all when he was working. In my mind to stiller I could stay they easier it was for him and the fast it would be over haha. The tattoo looks a bit dark right now and seem HUGE on my foot but when it heals it will lighten some and really it is only 2.5" in diameter, exactly what I told them I wanted.

I think Callen would really like it and now every time I look down at it I can think of his adventurous life. I miss Callen a lot and did not sleep to well last night because I was thinking of him. What would he say about his fairly conservative sister getting a tattoo before him? Would he like it? I miss Callen's passion for life. I miss his big brown eyes and the smile that can light up the room. While I am slowly healing I still have times of massive grief resting on my heart.

Today my foot started out at its normal size but throughout the day it has swelled... a lot. I called the tattoo place and they said it was normal to take some Advil and elevate it. It does not help that the air system in my building is BROKEN today so the only air circulation I have is my tiny 8" fan. FYI they told me to not ice it unless absolutely necessary. Looks like this is where I will stay tonight... on the couch.